I came home today after being away from Jah for over a week!!
Its really crazy that no matter how old he grows whenever I see my son my eyes
still light up like the day I first met him. I ran into his school like a kid
chasing the ice cream truck. Being able to wrap my arms around him is literally
the best feeling in the world and even though I am his mom and I’m sure he
looks to me as his protection, I find so much comfort and safety in those
moments with him. A child’s love is the purest form of love. It has no
conditions and is free of all judgment we often face daily from others. I am
currently experiencing a rough place right now in my life and Jahmeir is a constant
reminder of the many things I didn’t have the opportunity to experience prior
to him becoming apart of my life. The love I have for my son overwhelms my soul. This love has literally been a driving force in all I do. After a great reunion with Jah, my plans were
to go home and do homework and just laugh it up together, but those plans came
to a halt when we got news that my aunt's dog (Capone) died.
I honestly never understood how people bonded so closely with
animals until my aunt got Capone. He was born shortly before I gave birth to
Jahmeir. From the moment Jahmeir and Capone met, I knew why they refer to dogs
as a “mans best friend”. Capone could recognize Jahmeir’s voice miles away and
even during phone conversations, he would run to the phone and sit next to my aunt
to hear what Jahmeir was saying. As I am writing this, I have not yet told
Jahmeir the news. I am struggling with what to say and more so, how do I
provide him the comfort he will need when I share this news with him….
Breaking The News
As expected, Jahmeir did not handle the news well. The
struggle was trying to get him to understand that dogs don’t live as long as
humans. Of course being a kid with aspergers, he has combated every
explanation. He did however provide me with some great insight. When I asked
him if he wanted to talk his response was “Capone was like my brother and he
really loved me”. The gift of love is free and can be found in the simplest
forms and unexpected relationships and bonds.
Tonight’s post is in memory of Capone “Jah’s Best Friend”
